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- Handel's Messiah - Hallelujah Chorus [Other]
- U. S. Army Band - Battle Hymn of the Republic [Other]
- Maranatha Singers - It Is Well With My Soul [Other]
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In Moot Member Blogs
Christmas Melancholy
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#195
 December 19th, 2019 02:00 AM |
Christmas is a time of mixed feelings for me. Celebrating the birth of our Lord and Savior is something that I look forward too, and I greatly enjoy giving presents, more than receiving them. However, this time of year does bring back memories of what has gone before. Our first son was born on December 16th, three months premature, and never made it home, living for 5 months in a Newborn Intensive Care Unit. He died on May 10th. That tends to temper some on the celebration, and there are times when I wish that I did not have such a good memory for things. There are other memories of this time of year that stand out as well, and add to the melancholy mood that I get into.
Then the days are so much shorter, and the sun sets so early, while the grey days meander along. In a couple of days, that will reverse, and by the end of January, the sun will be up noticeably long, which will lift the spirits. I guess the years are wearing on me more as I get older. My wife says that I sound like an old man at times, and I think to myself, I am 68. That is not middle-aged any more, and I have been dealing with pain for forty-three and a half years now. That is going to take a toll as well. You do not learn to "live" with pain, you just learn to cope with it, and hope that there will be days when it does not jump up and bite you when you least expect it. I remember a long time ago, watching Johnny Carson doing an interview with Patrick Swayze on a film that he had just appeared in. They showed a snippet with some dialogue, and one of the lines has stuck in my memory. Swayze is supposedly getting sewn up for some wounds suffered in his job as a bouncer, and make the comment to the lady doctor sewing him up "Pain don't hurt none". I have always thought that is maybe the stupidest comment I have ever heard in a film. I wonder if the writer of that phrase really thought about what he or she wrote.
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Christmas Melancholy
